I give up

<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWm1NFCl8q9Nv0BRYAG7kr6D_P1EcTavpoxKoWgcPNBkoCQrt-nCLqaqlEpDAz2vX54DJlvFcV4qDmgyjsmvflgKdUmY8Arsc44K-Y4_O0MfXntUrw6Z4rn56-3h5Ntxx9Xzw9YLMN1E09/s1600-h/Size+7.JPG"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5386762182915520562" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWm1NFCl8q9Nv0BRYAG7kr6D_P1EcTavpoxKoWgcPNBkoCQrt-nCLqaqlEpDAz2vX54DJlvFcV4qDmgyjsmvflgKdUmY8Arsc44K-Y4_O0MfXntUrw6Z4rn56-3h5Ntxx9Xzw9YLMN1E09/s400/Size+7.JPG" style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" /></a><br /><br />I give up on ever wearing these size 7, slim fit jeans. I've had these jeans in my closet since 1997. That was the last time I weighed 124 pounds and had a 27" waist. I remember I was shopping with my mom and when I tried on these jeans, they fit. I looked skinny, really skinny. I was ecstatic to finally fit into a size 7.<br /><br />I also remember I felt like hell. I was weak and tired and hungry. It was my vegetarian, starvation phase, and eating less than 10 grams of fat a day. When I'd bend over and stand up quickly I'd see stars.<br /><br />I never wore these jeans. I was only at the 124-pound mark for about three weeks. I proceeded to gain 120 pounds over next two years. These jeans have remained on a hanger in the back of my closet all this time. I pull them out every year or so when I'd start a new diet. They were my goal jeans.<br /><br />Today I was putting away my summer clothes when I came across these jeans. I've finally accepted it, I will never weigh 124 pounds again. I'm 5' 6 1/2" and 54 years old. It's an old dream, one from when I was 14 years old. It's time to give it up and accept my size 10 body. I can live with that, I can't live with feeling sick just so I can wear size 7.<br /><br />I'm also giving up on these shoes. What the hell was I thinking? I have a few 3-inch heels, but 4-inch heels are just a little too much for me. Both the skinny jeans and the red 4-inch heels went to Goodwill today. They'll probably make some hooker very happy.<br /><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgz0YW0C7VDS0xDhDzQ80TE6HD5OvzuAxMOclLzTF9S_vChtJ-ceJbvtjG9ywO-IXw1aluQSPvDY9xWFVmg7xkrRJfKpOkFug84hyphenhypheniZSOcoywrzNUsC7Tnp-ArgDDQte1xZ_2cm_WAqKIu0/s1600-h/Red+Shoes.JPG"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5386762196501476242" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgz0YW0C7VDS0xDhDzQ80TE6HD5OvzuAxMOclLzTF9S_vChtJ-ceJbvtjG9ywO-IXw1aluQSPvDY9xWFVmg7xkrRJfKpOkFug84hyphenhypheniZSOcoywrzNUsC7Tnp-ArgDDQte1xZ_2cm_WAqKIu0/s400/Red+Shoes.JPG" style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 400px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" /></a><br /><br />Although I'm giving up on the jeans and the shoes, I'm not giving up on me reaching a healthy weight. I'm almost there, it's within my reach. Maybe it's not a size 7 or even an 8, maybe it's just a loose-fitting size 10.<br /><br />~Diana<br />162.2

I give up

I give up on ever wearing these size 7, slim fit jeans. I've had these jeans in my closet since 1997. That was the last time I weighed 124 pounds and had a 27" waist. I remember I was shopping with my mom and when I tried on these jeans, they fit. I …

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