Questions and no answers

Is it really a HoH I want? Or am I just craving submission in general?  Does it matter who I'm submitting to?  Do I even want to submit to my husband?   Do I trust him to lead my family?  Or does my family need me to lead?  Am I insane to think I can step down from my job as reluctant HoH?<br /><br />Do I really want DD with my husband?  Or is it that I just need to be spanked on a regular basis?  Do I want the spanking because of an infraction of some sort?  Is it something I actually did wrong like being bitchy?  Or is it for something completely made up like wearing the wrong panties? <br /><br />Do I actually think a good spanking and a hug will set me on a path to be a better person?  Or am I just wanting more frequent/longer/harder spankings from my husband that lead to other things?  Or do I want to join the dark side with other like-minded people and get what I need (non-sexually) that way?  And if that's what it is, will that physical action bring the settled feelings I think it will?<br /><br />I crave those couple days to a week after really intense dominating sex.  It's not the post-orgasmic endorphiny gooey friendlier than usual the next day thing.  It's different. Can't explain it, but probably no need because you already understand.<br /><br />So is it just lots of sex that puts me in that state? Or is my submissive side so wonderfully fed by his domination/aggression?  Or is it the little bit of spanky stuff that does it? <br /><br />I don't know much and I don't have answers. <br /><br />One thing I do know is I would never, ever, ever cheat on him or do anything of any sort behind his back. 

Questions and no answers

Is it really a HoH I want? Or am I just craving submission in general?  Does it matter who I'm submitting to?  Do I even want to submit ...

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