Old Flame 5:46 PM Tukiyooo 0 I guess anytime things get stressful between partners, one's mind has a tendency to wander...He's visited my dreams a few times lately. It's so real. I see him, smell him, hear his voice and I feel him. I found him on facebook today. He's married and has a beautiful son that is a mirror image of himself. No I'm not stupid, I won't contact him. I feel silly thinking about him now. I last saw him 19 years ago. He was my first love.It was too much, I was way too young, far too many years between us.Nothing kinky in the slightest. But he filled the role of the daddy I needed. And the allure of having the man that other girls swooned over... and the secrecy, the danger, the excitement, oh wow!It was discovered and it needed to end. I was of age by then. Still his job could have (should have) been on the line.It ended too soon. I wasn't ready. Neither of us were but he knew it was best.My mom was dying, just months left to live. Even though she hated me I felt I should be there for my dad who also didn't care for me. I ran away from the state I grew up in and transplanted myself to where I am now, where my parents had relocated to. It was a disaster in every way.I threw myself into an abusive relationship with the first person I met after moving here.Got out many years later.Rebounded into the arms of the man I eventually married.I don't have regrets. I love him. I adore my children and I have a good life. But I do ache for more.Now here I am, fantasizing about my first love. Wondering what could have been. Old Flame I guess anytime things get stressful between partners, one's mind has a tendency to wander... He's visited my dreams a few times lat... Read more »