Obese...

199.6<br /><br />I know how it happened. I just can't believe that I let it happen. This is 100% on me. I did this to myself. There aren't any excuses for gaining almost 30 pounds in the past five months. I was 172 the beginning of November 2011, now I'm almost 200 pounds.<br /><br />I'm trying to claw my way out of this mess. It's really difficult. Everything is harder at this weight. I can't cross my legs. My clothes are all too small. I don't recognize myself in the mirror. Exercise is excruciatingly painful. The StairMaster, which was my favorite cardio machine is now a machine of torture. My knees hurt, my feet hurt, and most of all, my heart hurts. I've asked myself over and over, why?<br /><br />The absolute worse part of this that on top of all the other things I have to worry about in my life, I added being fat to the list. <br /><br />I'm working on it. Two days in a row at the gym, and I tracked my calories today (too high at 2,205). Maybe tomorrow will be a better day.<br /><br /><br />

Obese...

199.6 I know how it happened. I just can't believe that I let it happen. This is 100% on me. I did this to myself. There aren't any ...

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