Reflecting on 2009

<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEibYLu1tU26y-AreCytHEmQaq-Im8uDGOIU7We6wc4jeVWUVcPzfoqoI2krzjyzzbpHtAYH6HbW77fXqbJRlXh1Vdamiz-AEA3NNxFQsN-Y4HhPPn3or4u9Vdx8IbMJavN82iTbjjlOupSu/s1600-h/2009.jpg"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5420542186174906946" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEibYLu1tU26y-AreCytHEmQaq-Im8uDGOIU7We6wc4jeVWUVcPzfoqoI2krzjyzzbpHtAYH6HbW77fXqbJRlXh1Vdamiz-AEA3NNxFQsN-Y4HhPPn3or4u9Vdx8IbMJavN82iTbjjlOupSu/s400/2009.jpg" style="TEXT-ALIGN: center; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; WIDTH: 358px; DISPLAY: block; HEIGHT: 164px; CURSOR: hand" /></a><br />Today I looked at my old blog, the one on the right, titled "My old Diana's Weight Loss Journey". I don't even remember why I started a new blog in March 2009. I vaguely remember it was something to do with this <a href="http://theantijared.blogspot.com/" target="blank">guy</a>. :)<br /><br />I was in search of my 2009 goals, which I found in my January 1, 2009 post. I also found my old blog was black type on a black background which made it unreadable. No idea how that happened.<br /><br />When I read through my 2009 goals I wanted to cry. My first thought was that I'm a big, fat failure. I didn't actually make any of my 2009 goals happen, and I only had four goals. Then I decided to try and look at the glass half full instead of half empty.<br /><br />Some of these goals are still going to be on my 2010 list, but here's how I did for 2009. Fortunately it was a short list.<br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">1. Get to my goal weight of 135 (28.6 pounds to go!).</span><br /><br />~~~ This was a fail. Any way I look at it I failed. I don't even know how I can put a <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_0" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">positive</span> spin on this one. I was so close and then something happened. I just stopped and went the other direction. I weighed 163.6 when I posted this goal January 1, 2009. Today I weighed 175.4, a gain of 11.8 pounds in 2009. I suppose the positive is that I didn't go all the way back up to 240 pounds.<br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">2. Maintain my 75-pound loss.</span><br /><br />~~~See #1. Although I've managed to maintain a 64.6 pound loss, this goal wasn't met.<br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">3. See a therapist for that nasty little compulsive overeating problem I have.</span><br /><br />~~~I saw a therapist for three sessions. It didn't help. I suppose I didn't give it a chance, but it seemed like a total waste of time and money. I know I have issues, but seeing a therapist didn't seem to really work for me. I'm neutral on this being a failure.<br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">4. Work on my marriage.<br /></span><br />~~~I did and I didn't. I guess the positive on this one is I'm still married. We have our good days and our bad ones. Sometimes it seems all bad, then a glimmer of the old us shows itself and it all seems worth working on.<br /><br />Well, so much for the positive spin. The only positive is that by being such a failure in 2009 I have an opportunity in 2010 to make these things happen. More to come on that later.<br /><br /><strong>My workout today</strong><br />Oh my gosh! I just about killed myself at the gym. I think I'm a bit of a showoff when it comes to lifting weights and I did a really foolish thing. I did all my concentrated <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_1" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">dumbbell</span> curls with 20-pound <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_2" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">dumbbells</span> (some guy was watching me), and then my overhead press with 25-pound <span id="SPELLING_ERROR_3" class="blsp-spelling-corrected">dumbbells</span>. I also added some new exercises today for upper body and now I can't lift my arms over my head. Ouch!<br /><br />I've added a blog page on the the right, My workouts, where I'll keep track of all my workouts. I always carry a notebook with me to the gym and write them down. Now I'll transfer the information to a blog page. If anyone has any suggestions of new exercises or web sites with exercises, please let me know. I had some bookmarked on my old laptop that crashed last summer and now I can't find them. I really want to ramp up my workout routines in 2010. This is going to be my year!

Reflecting on 2009

Today I looked at my old blog, the one on the right, titled "My old Diana's Weight Loss Journey". I don't even remember wh...

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