Fighting the good fight

Thanks for the great advice yesterday. I know I need to get back on track and sooner rather than later. <a href="http://mepschronicles.blogspot.com/" target="blank">Mary</a> suggested picking just one thing to change, just one thing for one day. One day at a time. I know she's right, yet I didn't do it today. <br /><br />In fact, I just made No-Pudge brownies (the ones made with yogurt). I'm sure they're no pudge if you eat just one, but I ate half the batch. I have no idea how many calories or Points. Honestly, I don't even want to know right now. <br /><br />My decision to make the brownies was based on when I binge, I'm binging on things that don't really satisfy my cravings. My rather weak theory is once I've eaten something I wanted, brownies, then I'll feel like my craving has been satisfied.<br /><br />The hole in my theory is that history has shown once I eat sugar, I want more and the craving becomes even more intense. I'm a sugar addict, just like a crack addict has to have crack, I have to have sugar once I get started.<br /><br />However, I have a plan for tomorrow. My plan is to get back on plan and TRACK MY FOOD. I usually do online tracking, but lately I just can't seem to bring myself to do it. For a change, I'm going to write it in one of the paper tracker booklets the rest of the week. <br /><br />The good thing about eating all those brownies is I feel really sick. Like if I never see another brownie for the rest of my life I'll be fine.<br /><br /><em>Update, the day after the brownies incident, 3/9 - 5:22 a.m.</em><br /><br /><em>I'm up and dressed for the gym, leaving in just a few minutes. Amazingly I don't feel any ill effects from the massive amount of sugar and white flour and chocolate I consumed last night (about six hours ago). I'm ready to go workout and actually feel somewhat engergized. Probably still on some kind of sugar high.</em><br /><br /><em>More amazing though is even after I weighed at 181.6 I'm not kicking myself in the head over last night's binge. I'm ready to fight this devil to my death. I will track today, stay within my Points, and drink water. I don't think I had any water yesterday. Funny how when one thing goes to hell for me it all goes to hell (I skipped the gym yesterday too). </em><br /><br /><em>Yesterday is past, it's history. Today is a new day and damn it, I'm going to do it today. Make it through just this one day doing the best I can!</em><br /><br />~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~<br /><br />It snowed today. This is a picture taken through our office window. The snowflakes were huge, but they melted as soon as they hit the ground. It was pretty while it lasted. <br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEixzvmjOCW2zoEKk7iFf04t7PwkiILtLbJpuRhBLuIWUiwQ6jTaVqvdt68cd6ap3lRaoUZMCjphu_bDbH6gYyzzcL9kUiYLVQxQjOGYgxVs0oq-3RiQSqKtyX9mb6LXKzVNdfHTQJojn4sO/s1600-h/snow.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="640" kt="true" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEixzvmjOCW2zoEKk7iFf04t7PwkiILtLbJpuRhBLuIWUiwQ6jTaVqvdt68cd6ap3lRaoUZMCjphu_bDbH6gYyzzcL9kUiYLVQxQjOGYgxVs0oq-3RiQSqKtyX9mb6LXKzVNdfHTQJojn4sO/s640/snow.jpg" width="596" /></a></div>

Fighting the good fight

Thanks for the great advice yesterday. I know I need to get back on track and sooner rather than later. Mary suggested picking just one thi...

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